[the words may have been encouraging, but he can see that leon is exhausted and that... even him saying that much was probably a struggle.
he's making things harder for leon.
again.
which probably doesn't help him feel any better even despite the encouraging words. leon isn't wrong though—no matter how much other people tell him what he should be, what he needs to be... nobody else can really decide it for him.]
Nobody...
Nobody else ever told me that. [and maybe he should have known along? but stahn's head drops and he draws in a shaky breath as he tries to mask a sob. there will be apologies for this in a bit, but first comes addressing how much this contrasts what everyone else always told him.]
Everyone else needs me. I have a duty to fulfill, I don't have time to be sad, I need to get over it. I need to pick myself up and keep going forward.
[his voice drops to barely above a whisper.] That's all everyone ever said.
[and that's why he's struggling so much. he's trying so hard to meet so many expectations, but at the end of the day, he's a grieving teenage boy from the sticks who fell into the responsibility of saving the world. he's not a knight like leon, he's not equipped for death and tragedy and responsibility on this scale.]
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he's making things harder for leon.
again.
which probably doesn't help him feel any better even despite the encouraging words. leon isn't wrong though—no matter how much other people tell him what he should be, what he needs to be... nobody else can really decide it for him.]
Nobody...
Nobody else ever told me that. [and maybe he should have known along? but stahn's head drops and he draws in a shaky breath as he tries to mask a sob. there will be apologies for this in a bit, but first comes addressing how much this contrasts what everyone else always told him.]
Everyone else needs me. I have a duty to fulfill, I don't have time to be sad, I need to get over it. I need to pick myself up and keep going forward.
[his voice drops to barely above a whisper.] That's all everyone ever said.
[and that's why he's struggling so much. he's trying so hard to meet so many expectations, but at the end of the day, he's a grieving teenage boy from the sticks who fell into the responsibility of saving the world. he's not a knight like leon, he's not equipped for death and tragedy and responsibility on this scale.]